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Hope your year is off to a good start! Mine's been interesting to say the least, beginning with a lot of pent up frustration at my mate's parents, my mate falling ass-first on an icy driveway, and lots of progress on academic job applications and analyses. I know, I know, it's the holidays and I'm not supposed to be working, but there's not much else to do because the weather is downright gnarly. Made a few new year's resolutions too, including being better about getting routine health checkups because you know, that's probably a good thing, and to work more on defining personal boundaries in relationships. All important stuff.

Every year I submit a holiday card to Draconity.org that gets printed out and shared with any derg that signs up for card deliveries. Here's this year's! Also last year's because I forgot to post it (whoops).

A blue eastern dragon is coiled around a snowy mountain at dusk. The words "may your holiday sceason be cozy and restful" sit above the dragon. The image is signed by Kiera Ember. Six white western dragons in a snowflake pattern are overlaid on a photograph of a snowy forest clearing. The words "happy holidays, D.org!" sit at the bottom of the image. The image is signed by Kiera Ember.

I think maybe I was wrong about my Andalite hearttype. I've felt a connection with these weird blue aliens since I started reading Animorphs back in early middle school and I always enjoyed the parts of the books that included Andalites the most. Especially Ax, because who doesn't like reading about an awkward alien trying to navigate human society with a bunch of teenagers. I'd even run around on the playground imagining myself as an Andalite.

A few years back I realized that my love for Andalites never went away. I even briefly questioned them as a kintype at one point, but settled on some sort of hearttype identity.

I still find it super fun to imagine myself as an Andalite when I'm bored although I don't really do it that often. It really hit me a few days ago though as I was going for a jog. I don't listen to music while running and my mind tends to wander. I imagined myself running as an Andalite and thought about how nice it would be to gallop along the road instead of plodding along on two stubby legs. It was great. Totally recommend. But in that moment I realized that I don't really have that much of an interest in surrounding myself with Andalite stuff or think about them much beyond to think that they're a neat species design. There's also nothing in my soul (that I'm currently aware of) that tells me I AM an Andalite but it's certainly fun to imagine myself as one.

Maybe Andalites are more of a linktype than a hearttype. Or some sort of hybrid link-hearttype. I feel like I've been trying to force Andalites into a hearttype box because that's what I'm familiar with, considering I've never had anything beyond kintype and hearttype identities before. It's not really an identity that I feel like I can drop at will, but it's also not a very strong identity except in cases when I feel like playing pretend.

Eh it's a vaguetype for now! But I'll probably have to do some more questioning.

I finally splurged and bought myself a pack of the ✨Kin drink✨

 

I got the pineapple kind and it is definitely not worth the $4/can (wtf !!!), but wasn't as bad as I expected. Basically tasted like pineapple, way too much turmeric, and cardamom. Did it make me feel like I was glowing? Absolutely not. Would I drink again? Ehhhhhh probably if it was free?

There are two other varieties, but I'm not sure I'm willing to shell out an additional $30 for the amusement. TBD I suppose!

Did a little bit of international travel last week and got to see an erupting volcano up close! I was one of those kids who was completely obsessed with volcanoes and lava and I admittedly never really grew out of it. Also, having some fire affinity, draconically speaking, has made letting the hot burny thing obsession hard to drop. Needless to say I was so excited when I found out we could get quite close, I was basically yelling the whole way there. We were close enough that you could hear it roaring over the gusting winds.

We did a ton of other cool stuff on vacation, but this was definitely the highlight for me, and will probably top a lot of future travel experiences for a long time.

I try not to be too political online, but considering a very large portion of the folks I know around here are likely members of a marginalized or underrepresented community in some way (check out [this] or [this] community survey if you're unconvinced), I suspect many of us are feeling like we've had the rug pulled out from under us given recent political happenings in the United States. Electing a president isn't instantly going to make or break our lives, but another four plus years of increasingly far-right leadership does not bode well for folks like us who don't fit whatever "normal" means to those who will be directing our country. We're already seeing targeted harassment toward minorities, with the apparent intent to intimidate or threaten. Far-right ideology appears to be gaining ground elsewhere across the globe too, so this isn't an isolated turn of events. Some of us can blend in, sure, but many can't or simply don't want to. The older I get, the more I'm beginning to fall into the latter camp, although I'm one of the very privileged folks who is able to blend in if I so choose.

In a nutshell, I think things are going to get tougher for those of us in the US, and beyond, in the near future, with the potential for lasting consequences depending on how much the incoming administration can lay groundwork for long-term plans. We need to be as stubborn about not letting them implement things laid out in Project 2025 and whatever else they have planned as possible. I've been reading through some interesting guides about how to stay sane, protect yourselves and loved ones, and organize to push back against whatever might come our way. Links if you're interested:
[Waging Nonviolence 10 Ways to Be Prepared]
[The Never Again Action 2024 Post-Election Guide]

I'm sure there are plenty of others that are great resources too. It's worth noting these aren't alterhuman-specific, but if you know of any alterhuman-specific resources or other similar guides in general, let me know.

Also, if you're fortunate enough to have a little spending money, please consider donating to your local news outlets if you don't already! Many do the incredibly important work reporting on local issues that affect numerous people but don't get national attention, and are often fairly free of the sensationalism that larger news outlets often rely on to drive reader/watcher/listenership. They also typically do a good job of correctly reporting science, which can be quite difficult. Go give 'em a few bucks and let them know you appreciate their hard work. I try to donate annually if I can, even if it's only like $10.

Finally, turn off the news and quit doomscrolling if you're feeling overwhelmed. Seriously. There are so many folks out there fighting against this that you're free to take a little time for yourself to recharge.

Stay weird and stay safe y'all.
Yeesh. The last few months have really, truly been bonkers. I think I've aged a good five years in that time span. I moved across the country into a house, quickly realized the house sucked ass and broke the lease and moved to an apartment, started a full time job, immediately went on "vacation" (it was the opposite of relaxing) for a week and a half, and then spent a week at a conference. I'm so tired. We still kind of don't have furniture yet either, so my mate and I were sleeping on a mattress on the floor for about two months, up until a couple days ago. I also got a shiny new computer, so unless I boot up my ageing laptop beast, I don't really have access yet to many of the files or browser tabs I'm used to having at my fingertips. I'm slowly moving my computer ecosystem to my new machine, but the computer is technically owned by my employer, so I'm still feeling out a way to set everything up so I can keep personal and work stuff at least a little separated. Fortunately it sounds like I'll be able to keep the computer once I leave the job, but it's got a few employer-installed things on it that make it tough to feel completely comfy just flinging my files everywhere like I did with my old computer.

Anyway, I'm finally starting to get settled and in a routine again and can focus a little bit more on things outside of work. My mate and I have been exploring town a little bit, I'm starting to cook and bake fun stuff again, and I'm finally starting to get back to the online communities I've been missing a ton over the past half year. Nothing crazy planned in the near future (online or offline), considering I really don't have free time like I used to and most of my brain is filled with thoughts about bird data and statistical analyses, but I feel like I'm at least healing from the stress of defending my dissertation and immediately being thrown into the postdoc world. So that's good.

I'll be around! ^.=.^
My move across the country is rapidly approaching! Been spending most of my time helping my mate pack everything up and getting my cats ready for the move. Man, who knew flying with pets took so much planning. Things are going well though, now that I've submitted all of my dissertation edits.

Also was lucky enough to take a short summer vacation to southeastern Alaska, so have some glacier.



Been thinking a bit about my relationship to the term theriomythic (an individual who identifies as a non-earthly creature of a feral or non-sentient nature), which I've been using for a number of years now.

I'm certainly sentient, so that part doesn't really apply, but do I count as feral? I'm animalistic by many measures: strong prey drive, I certainly wouldn't wear clothes or much adornment as a dragon, and given the chance, I would 100% snarf a sandwich straight out of your hands. However, I'm also an intelligent beastie and have the ability to read, write, reason, and plan ahead.

If you're familiar, Rin from pocketss' comics is a good analog for my behavior.

I think I just let my instincts get the better of me on occasion, and enjoy it in the moment. Does that count as feral or just mischievous? Am I an animal or just a little shit? Hm.

The term theriomythic can cover a lot of different identities, I think, given there's a prominent "or" in the definition. I'm not full-on animalistic but I'm definitely not a derg who cooks its food or probably participates much in any sort of society (but is that just a me thing or a byproduct of whatever dragon species I am?), so I feel like theriomythic probably still applies? Anyway, still going to keep using it unless I convince myself otherwise *shrug*
Now that I have a tad more free time at my disposal, I've been trying to update things over at Beyond Humanity. Lots has changed over the past couple of years online regarding alterhuman and nonhuman identities, and after reading through my FAQ, I realized that some of my answers likely come off as pretty darn snotty. I never intended any of it to sound gatekeepy, but it's a fine line to walk between explaining various aspects of alterhumanity to someone with an outside perspective and providing nuanced answers to community members, and I'm not convinced I did a particularly good job of it. It also seems like the community as a whole (or at least the parts of the community I interact with on a regular basis) has gotten better at understanding and accepting nuanced identities, which is awesome and I'd argue makes for fewer curmudgeons.

No big changes planned for the website currently, but if you have thoughts or suggestions, definitely send 'em my way!

I'm a doctor!

May. 7th, 2024 11:38 am
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I'm very pleased to say I passed my dissertation defense and I'm finally a doctor of ecology! Well, at least according to my academic advising committee. I still need to submit edits to my dissertation that my committee recommended for my degree to be official, but I have a few months to do so. Post-defense edits are extremely common and the suggestions I received are quite manageable, so that's a huge relief. Once I get edits submitted, I'm off to prep for my post doc position doing avian population modeling, which I'm extremely excited about. That unfortunately requires a move across the country, but I'll be moving to a city I've lived in previously, working for an institution I have a long history with, so hopefully it won't be too much of a struggle. Either way, I'm excited to move on from my dissertation work to something new.

Been busy with school, trying to finish up as much as I can so I can graduate next spring. I feel like I'm so close but also so insanely far from finishing everything. I'm making good progress though and I'm happy with everything, but I have almost no downtime.

I was able to get away for a week and go on another dinosaur dig like the one I did a couple of years ago! It was a blast and the staff there trusted my partner and me to kind of handle digging out bones on our own since we'd been there before and seemed at least passably competent. It was hot and we were basically paying to do manual labor in the sun, but I think we got a fuller picture of how field paleontology works in the real world this time around as we chatted with the staff as we dug in the dirt. Essentially all we worked on were sections of articulated vertebrae because the staff wanted them out of the ground before the season ended, but we also got to look at some incredible Diplodocus femurs and stuff like that.






Was procrastinating and tried my hand at making some alterhuman, therian, and otherkind merch! Haven't seen a whole lot available tbh, so I figured I could help remedy that in a small way. Hoping to add some additional designs for other identities under the alterhuman umbrella in the future.

So far I only have a few designs up, but you can find them here if you're interested:
https://www.zazzle.com/store/caffeinated_dragon
https://www.cafepress.com/profile/148410959

Aaaand, some photos!
Dog tags with a theta delta symbol printed on them
(dog tags for the dogs out there heh)

A shirt with a septagram symbol printed on it

A shirt with an alt symbol printed on it

Fieldwork has been excruciatingly hot, leaving me pretty much too drained to do much else besides do fieldwork laundry and try not to bake in my apartment. Bleh. To make matters worse, the bird species I study essentially abandoned the only breeding site in the state, so things aren't looking terribly good for my birdies. On the bright side, I have enough data to finish my PhD, but boy does the situation not look great for the state bird population.

Anyway, my garden is coming along nicely and I harvested my first zucchini! Lots more to follow, so I may be in zucchini hell very soon. Not that I'm complaining, because heck, fresh vegetables!
Been enjoying the warm weather and have been gearing up for my last field season doing research for my PhD! It's a lot of work, but I hired a great field tech who has been helping me repair field gear, organize stuff, and just be generally helpful.

I was able to submit one of my dissertation chapters to a journal today for peer review, which is a huge achievement considering how much reformatting we had to do to make it eligible for this particular venue. Damn you ridiculously small word count caps! Here's to hoping it doesn't immediately get desk-rejected by the journal editor.

I also managed to get a plot in a free local community garden, so I'm hoping I'll get a nice harvest of fruits and veggies come the end of summer. Other than than, just trying to keep my head above water as I try to finish up my research and graduate. 🫠

Yeesh, this has been a busy semester, as is evidenced by my lack of posts. I have about a year before my grad stipend runs out, so I'm going full speed ahead in trying to finish my dissertation. I'm making solid progress, but haven't had much time to enjoy anything else. I did squeeze in a little bit of international travel in February with my dad and a family friend, so that was a nice break from work. However, it wasn't at all a restful vacation, so it probably did more harm than good in the long run for my grad work. Still, would I do it again in a heartbeat? Heck yeah!

All in all, I still probably won't be posting much in the near future now that I'm gearing up for the field season. Lots of birds to study and lots of people to train! Hopefully some pictures of Sri Lanka will suffice instead. :P

Dense tropical trees near a brick wall with lights attached to it

A view of jungle foliage through an open window A lush vegetable garden surrounded by tropical trees

Rice paddies surrounded by dense jungle trees

Probably my last post for awhile as I get back into the swing of things after the holidays, but in case you needed a little more holiday cheer, have some belated Christmas cookies! Waited to post so folks over on Draconity.org could enjoy getting theirs in the mail spoiler-free. ^.=.^

Digital art of a plate of Christmas cookies, with a black clawed hand covering them with icing. The words "Happy Holidays - Kiera Ember" are superimposed on the image

Who-is-Page just released a banger of a zine [here]! It's a beautifully decorated 89-page collaborative zine, written by alterhumans and nonhumans. I had an absolute blast reading it, and it really gave me some nostalgic vibes from back when I stumbled across the writings of Akhila, Quil, et al.

It's been an exceedingly crappy holiday weekend here in North America (I say that broadly, because the large portions of the US and Canada are getting walloped by a massive snow storm/cold snap that now has a significant body count), with flight cancellations and travel curfews abound. I luckily managed to avoid most of it with only a flight delay of four hours or so. At any rate, I'm being force fed as much delicious food as my mate's family can get me to eat, and mostly just lazing around their house. It's been nice.

In other news, I'm going to try to start cross-posting here more, because I really don't use this account for much. It's mostly because uploading photos to Dreamwidth sucks and I don't have the patience for it. So, you'll probably see more posts, but fewer photos, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. Also, finally got around to signing up for an Alt.Fan.Dragons email digest, considering the group is still active (!) after all of these years. Seeing some new faces around there, which is nice.

Wheeee, I suck at keeping up with journals here.

Anyway, I got to take a tour of a cave today! A little wet in parts, but the majority was cozy and dry, and would have made a very nice lair. Bonus photo of a cool whale skull fossil replica they had in the gift shop.

Not much else going on here besides too many classes and too many responsibilities. Oof.








I've just turned in my last assignment for the semester!!! Well, that doesn't count dissertation stuff...that never ends and isn't on a schedule like classes are, so I'm not done for the rest of the year, but at least I can focus more on important stuff. Assuming I don't find another class to take up my time, next semester I should only be taking one class and then I'll be done with classes for good and can focus on my research. Looking forward to it immensely, because I feel like I'm constantly slowed down by other commitments, and considering I've been here like three years already, I want to get a move on with my research. Yay!

I'll be visiting my parents over Christmas, so it'll be nice to see them, but beyond that I'll hopefully have some solid time to catch up on sleep, hobbies, and reading papers I've been meaning to. Definitely, definitely looking forward to sweet, sweet sleep though.